THE LOST DOGS OF LANGSTON.

THE LOST DOGS OF LANGSTON Entry 8. I think it's 8, I"m starting to forget. Memory slips and stuff, damndemic stuff. All kinds of stuff just a changing and a changing. Well that is probably good. But speaking of animals and how to treat them. In the Bible it says dominion over animals, NOT DOMINATION. Dominion is lordship. I assume that also includes stewardship and ownership, but also it means you take care of them. And it's not about driving all the other species off the planet and burning up the rainforest. God said go forth and multiply, he didn't say go forth and shit in your nest. Maybe he shoulda put a cap on it. So animals. Country people just kinda let dogs and cats run around because there's hardly any cars, well relatively speaking although there was a dead pit bull in my yard on New Year's Day the first day of 2019, she weighed sixty or seventy pounds. The chef from down the way texted and said One of your dogs got out. Wasn't my dog...all mine were safe and locked tightly away in their crates. Which is what city slickers do, they don't just let animals run around and not only am I a city slicker, but I'm a very uptight and paranoid city slicker. We had some guy stealing people's dogs in Jackson County, maybe forty-something dogs got stole outta people's yards and one was a lady's service dog. Paranoid is not even the WORD. I mean the word hadn't even been INVENTED yet. I put the dead pit bull dog into my wheelbarrow and wheeled her back to the thicket in the woods just behind my house, on my property. I have about three acres here. I put her in a blanket and sorta covered her with leaves. I had no idea how to use shovels and such. I just left her there. I don't know what happened next, she was quite far from the house. It was sad but I wanted to do it before the rain came that day. And the weird thing was, I heard barking outside early early that morning but I did not hear anything with a car. And once I ran over a possum on the way home one night and I went back to look for it the next day in the daylight but I couldn't find it anywhere. Some people think that some animals just come to these vortices, certain vortices on the planet that are death places and that's where they're coming. We did everything we could to change that if it were actually true. We put things in place. I don't want an animal cemetery here although if I stay long enough there will probably be one. But i don't want it to be the primary reason these animals are here. They gotta have some LIFE first. Which is why I didn't take the dumped off animals here to the shelter. I didn't want to risk them not getting a chance and I felt that the shelter here was just too high-kill. So you can kinda see that even though I am not vegetarian...and I did give it a hearty try, six months of ovo-lacto...and I got very anemic and sick and dizzy from that and had to go back to eating meat...well at least I tried. And I don't think that meat should come from those horrible factory farms either. I don't want to eat that so I shop at Whole Foods and god knows I sure hope they're not selling it. And I don't eat fast food anymore and in 2000 I kinda went as "green" as possible and I suppose I am a Green Party person but the thing about animals is, as a scientist I know well once said, animals are just like people in their emotional range...some of them are jerks and some of them are kind and some are more evolved than others. REally. He made a good point. So to be so invested in each individual tragedy, like when you hit a bird or something on the road, well it's awful at the time but in the great cycle of life and death blah blah blah And now I"m rambling, still haven't figured it all out. But I think the real thing I'm trying to say here is that when you get a city slicker out into the country and you notice that animal control doesn't even come with the truck way out in the county where you live, and you notice people dumping dogs and cats randomly off where you live, and not taking any responsibility at all for either their well being or their spay or neuter stuff, well then you keep rambling because you are really trying to find the answers but there are no answers, you just do what you can to help them and it seems like so little and you wish you could do so much more but eventually this hurts and you either have to go to sleep or just sit and play video games and try not to think about it. Because I don't think people have solved the moral dilemma of how to treat animals for CENTURIES and it will take some work to actually do we've gotten ourselves into a huge mess and covids are probably a form of bat karma the animals found themselves speaking through the virus and it said a really big thing. And people woke up and died So I say to the pups I don't like the hierarchy, listen, I didn't invent this, it's just that I'm the boss now because I have to take care of you and that's how it's going to go. And they don't always like it but that's the way it is. And then too sometimes I get to the end of the day like six o'clock and I say aloud, I don't feel like feeding you. I don't really want to feed you and switch you out into the yard one dog at a time, I'm tired, I want someone ELSE to do that but there IS no one else because it's a pandemic and really that shouldn't be used as an excuse, it's just a template and a background for whatever is going on inside your house now unless somebody actually HAS the covids and then it's different, then it's not just a template but a catalyst for really awful things but you see all the solitude really gives you space to think about everything you're doing and everything you're thinking and when you start thinking about what you're thinking, you're going quite far. They do it on Calm dot com, they can show you how. It's that Jeff guy. He's really got some interesting things to say in those ten-minute meditation thingies. I have used them to sleep a lot and the story about the Moss Temple in Japan. That's my favorite (i have listened to it probably seven hundred times) and it makes me wanna either conjure or grow all the moss I can around here. But then the dogs will probably dig some of it up. Sophie digs random holes in the yard. One of them was shaped like a big J and it was Captain Jackson who used to live here...his second wife survived two pandemics. She was the lady who first lived in this house. I wonder what they thought about dogs and cats and how to treat them? I mean they probably didn't do surgery on them to neuter them...they were too busy chopping wood to feed the fires in the fireplace so the dang place could stay warm! And how on earth did they survive going to the outhouse in the winter? Well maybe they had a cabinet for the chamber pot but there I go...digressing again...for the trillionth time... But now that I think it over a little, I guess a pandemic is an excuse, it's a big excuse for a lotta stuff. It's fine to use pandemic as an excuse. I shouldn't be so hard on everything and everyone. Lily Belle is barking and I have to go switch her out so Tinky can go out.